For those of you who haven't been introduced to SARK yet, SARK stands for Susan Arial Rainbow Kennedy. She is a best-selling author who has published a whopping 16 books, she is the CEO and founder of Planet Sark, this amazing website that supports empowered living, and most importantly, a huge role model that encourages living creatively and authentically.
SARK's website is www.planetsark.com - you MUST check it out! |
SARK makes awesome posters like this. How can you not love her? |
Except, underneath all that puffed-up bravado, there was my little nagging voice that whispered that law school wasn't what I really wanted to do. I pushed aside that voice, drowning it out with thoughts of how powerful I was going to be, how important, how rich. I pushed the fear aside with images of my corner office overlooking Manhattan skyscrapers.
But then my little voice turned into a roar.
The day I was supposed to mail in my non-refundable deposit to law school, I decided to walk to the post office and drop it off. Half-way there, I started hyperventilating. I broke out into a cold sweat, and started feeling like I was going to pass out. I thought I was going to die. I must have looked insane as I crumpled down on the lawn of someone's house and stared at the clouds through a big tree.
I now realize that was a panic attack, but at the time, I totally thought I was having a stroke. Regardless of the label, that incident was my body telling, screaming at me, what my mind was not willing to hear. I did NOT want to go to law school.
The next year was a really dark one for me. I had to tell my parents I wasn't going to law school, and worse, I didn't have a clue of what I wanted to do. I had to shed all those labels that I hid behind for so long. I was lost, and I felt like a total failure.
And then I found SARK. Her writing was like a colorful, bright light that illuminated my bleak gray outlook. She wrote about living juicy and being true to your authentic self, and her writing helped me not only accept, but celebrate my choice to be true to myself, no matter how scary it was. Months later, I made the decision to move to Hawaii, which was one of the best decisions I've ever made. And my life just started to fall into place. My authentic life, this time.
Needless to say, I adore SARK. Here is her recent TED Talk. I totally hope you enjoy it!
Here are more awesome SARK posters:
Hi Jennifer,
ReplyDeleteI just read "Succulent Wild Woman" last night after it occupied my bookshelf for three years... wonderful words at just the right time! I then stumbled on your blog through various Google clickings. It is so refreshing to know that the world is still full of beautiful, vibrant "human beans"! Keep shining your light and spreading good vibes, sister!
Take care,
Kae
Thanks so much, Kae! Don't you love when a book, or a movie, or a quote that never quite resonated all of a sudden finds its way back into your life at the exact moment that you needed to hear its message? It kinda reminds me of this quote:
Delete“If something is not happening for you it doesn’t mean it’s never going to happen. It means you’re not ready for it.” ~ Unknown
So glad you read "Succulent Wild Woman," it's one of my favorites!
Aloha,
Jennifer